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For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” Romans 8:15

Friday, I received what could have been devastating news: my hours at work were being drastically reduced. By drastically I mean going from forty hours a week to eighteen. I wasn’t making a lot of money to begin with. I would be lying if I said fearful thoughts weren’t present within me at all as I received this news. My budget flew before my eyes. I calculated. Short. My bosses hated to break this news to me and I could see the pain in their eyes as they asked if I could “make it on the meager pay check I would now be getting. Could I? Can I?

I have two choices here. I can choose a spirit of fear, or a spirit of trust.

“For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.” 2 Timothy 1:7″

And, yes I will make it. We will. Why? Because, God is sovereign over all things and I know He has a purpose in this. I have also ran the budget and know that if I keep a ‘tight ship’ it will be do-able. So, I am choosing to trust this new, challenging life change. As in the pas,t my family has rallied around me with support. Between my mother and my former-mother-in-law I will be able to pull Rylee out of daycare! That will save a lot. I’m also looking forward to spending the majority of my week at home now. Perhaps, God is using this time to let me practice being a stay-at-home mother/wife? Certainly, I don’t know the mind of God but I cannot help but wonder … Home is where I’ve wanted to be so long now! Cooking, cleaning, with my children … just running my home.This is an answer to a prayer, really! It just isn’t the answer I was expecting! But I will embrace it and praise the Lord for it.

So, I look to the future with a smile and I trust God will take care of me and refine me. Soli Deo Gloria!