Normally, I don’t do “Thankful Thursdays” on my blog. But, I am so thankful for what I saw in my daughters last night that I wanted to share.
Last night was awful. I completely my lost my cool with my children and yelled very unkind words at them. They weren’t even doing anything super wrong, just being kids, really. I could make up excuses for my behavior. But I won’t. It happened because I’m a sinful woman, and for a moment I had lost sight of who owns me (Jesus). I had let the Cross slip out of my mind. After all this I pulled my girls close, all of us crying, and I apologized and asked for their forgiveness. Through tears I told them I was sorry I was such a bad mommy, so often lately and that I felt like I didn’t know how to be a good mommy.
Rylee, my four year old, said to me: “Mommy, when you are selfish you have to remember that God sent his son Jesus and His blood covers our dirty hearts. You have to believe that, Mommy. That’s the only thing that can make you change. Nothing else will work.”
Emma, my eight year old, forgave me before I even asked. She held me close and reassured me that her love for me was not conditional. She knows that’s not how love works.
And I was floored. God just used my four-year old to preach the Gospel to me in love. I was humbled. It was what I had to hear. I could refocus. I could repent. I was reminded of the only thing that matters. God uses the littlest people.