Friday, I received what could have been devastating news: my hours at work were being drastically reduced. By drastically I mean going from forty hours a week to eighteen. I wasn’t making a lot of money to begin with. I would be lying if I said fearful thoughts weren’t present within me at all as I received this news. My budget flew before my eyes. I calculated. Short. My bosses hated to break this news to me and I could see the pain in their eyes as they asked if I could “make it on the meager pay check I would now be getting. Could I? Can I?
I have two choices here. I can choose a spirit of fear, or a spirit of trust.
“For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.” 2 Timothy 1:7″
And, yes I will make it. We will. Why? Because, God is sovereign over all things and I know He has a purpose in this. I have also ran the budget and know that if I keep a ‘tight ship’ it will be do-able. So, I am choosing to trust this new, challenging life change. As in the pas,t my family has rallied around me with support. Between my mother and my former-mother-in-law I will be able to pull Rylee out of daycare! That will save a lot. I’m also looking forward to spending the majority of my week at home now. Perhaps, God is using this time to let me practice being a stay-at-home mother/wife? Certainly, I don’t know the mind of God but I cannot help but wonder … Home is where I’ve wanted to be so long now! Cooking, cleaning, with my children … just running my home.This is an answer to a prayer, really! It just isn’t the answer I was expecting! But I will embrace it and praise the Lord for it.
So, I look to the future with a smile and I trust God will take care of me and refine me. Soli Deo Gloria!